Really need to watch the rest of that movie!

We keep saying that's what we're going to do.. But Adult Swim is like a magnet, or crack. We have so many movies that we've bought and not watched! I don't know what it is anymore, that I can't just sit and watch a movie. I love movies. I just don't want to watch them lately. The other day my lady was going to send me to see Prometheus ( she doesn't want to see it) but I changed my mind. I really want to see that movie. And so many others! Like all the ones we own but have not watched.
I saw my brother today. Nothing much was said, and that suits me just fine. I don't really care at this point if we get along or not. And frankly, until he gets a divorce, I'm pretty much done. That particular package deal is not something I am going to deal with any longer. When Sammy is eighteen, she can look her aunt Heather up if she wants.
Time to find something constructive to do.

WTF

So now this stupid bullshit with my brother and mom has me in a funk that is completely Unjustified. I know what come next. I won't handle it well and I'll bring everyone down with me.. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to talk. And that's the problem... If I talk about it I'll feel better, in theory... But in my mind I'll just feel worse. But I have to get things done and I have to pretend to get on with life.. All I want is to sit here on this couch and pretend I'm watching and enjoying the today show.. Wishing I was still asleep

We still haven't watched the rest of Sherlock Holmes..last night I played Dead Space 2 and beat the game. Then I stated over. The third one comes out next winter... Can't wait.

*sigh

I thought things with jimmy we're getting back to good.. Yeah, it was only on Thursdays and never while Kristina was around, but last Wednesday proved to me that I was so fucking wrong. He doesn't give a shit, and that's ok.. But the cruelty that spewed from his face hole was just too much. And that cunt of a wife of his... Fuck her. My kids are not misfits. My kids are not emo. And my kids had as much right to be in that stupid fucking picture as any of the other little shits that were there. And thank you jimmy... Thank you for reminding me that I am such a fool, and so stupid... I so need to be put in my place. Fuck you. I live in a house. My kids do well in school and are not on drugs or are they alcoholics. They don't ditch and it's rare that they open a fresh mouth to us or any other adult. We aren't suffocating under a mountain of debt and we don't spend 80 percent of our pay on fucking weed. I don't hold on to stale stupid grudges and therefore I have a great relationship with our father, while you live under the delusion he will just keep trying and kissing your ass as long as you dangle your daughter in front of him. But by all means...keep assuming dad will keep taking your abuse. Oh and do keep taking advantage of their generosity.. Thats super classy and I'm sure the money train will just keep on...
Thank you mom, for standing up for me while your son told me what a fool I was and and how my kids didn't belong there. It's good to know where I stand. And thank you for proving, once again, that while the other "grand kids" can come and go as their parents please, my kids aren't even welcome when they offer to help with said other kids. I keep hoping it will change, but I think I'm done hoping and frankly my kids are getting too old to care about it anymore.
It's hard to think about the fact that the people who love and accept this family for what and who we are live so far away. But that's the way it is, and now my eyes are fully open to it.

I watched half of the second Sherlock Holmes movie the other night, so I'll withhold my opinions until I watch the whole thing.

i'm back...

it's been over a year since i last looked at this blog... or posted in this blog.. but recent developements in my life dictate that i must start using it again... it either this or mass murder, and i would prefer to stay out of jail. so i will blog, because facebook people get so offended so easily, and here, if a random stranger reads my rantings...well who cares.. its a random stranger. if it offends..stop fucking reading!
  i never did move out, or even go to Denver for some time apart. we are better than ever despite a slight hiccup with a troll. but said troll is back under her bridge and she can no longer hurt us or our happiness.. i will still occasionally talk about movies, but this will mostly be me trying to detoxify my head.. toodles for now, beautiful humans