Ok, so there was an issue tonight with a certain asshole texting a certain MY GRRRL... And whatever.. This douche is well known for drunk dialing and texting.. But she thought it best to lie about it.. And that brought up the fact that she still doesn't think she can talk to me about anything.. Mostly because of how I might "handle" whatever it may be... That got me thinking.... I guess it's not just me who has to learn to trust again.. I do trust her... But now she has to trust in that.. And she'll have to trust that she CAN tell me anything and she CAN talk to me about anything anytime.. That's what this "us" work is all about.. I know I can talk to her about everything.. Even the shit she doesn't want to discuss. And she knows she can just say she doesn't want to talk about it... And ohh has she... But the point of this is simply that here I am thinking I was the only one that was going to need to learn to trust again.. The truth is she has spent mos of the relationship afraid to talk to me about most things and now she must learn to trust as well. Geeze I'm a dumbass sometimes... I thought this part of the journey was going to be the lonely part.. But she's right there with me... And I will do whatever I have to do for her to trust that she can talk to me again! She is my best friend and my heart and my lover and the one person I want to spend all of my days with.. It's only fair she be able to talk to me about whatever and not fear my reaction or judgement.
Right now I am watching Harry Potter and the Sorcerers Stone.. Everyone is so young in this one.. And this movie is the one that is closest to the book... I'm sure it has something to do with how the book is pretty short compared to the others.. I love all the movies just for he sake of loving movies... Who cares that they don't follow the books verbatim...
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