i had some thoughts last Thursday while cleaning house for my aunt.. It has been brought to my attention by more than one family member, that i am seen as dumb... not smart... stupid... an idiot....etc. i'm not sure why i am viewed this way by a bunch of right wing hicks. i love my family, but my brains came from dads side, no question. i can only assume that because i prefer not to join in the inane chatter that goes on at gatherings, i am thought of as somehow mentally inferior. i don't talk to these people because their opinions are WRONG and ignorant. i would rather not argue with them because honestly, its like talking to a wall. My lifestyle is incompatible with the family. i am tolerated. but i don't wish to try any kind of intellectual discussion with any of them.  i'm pretty sure most of them are of the school of "the earth is 5000 years old and some old white guy who is also his son made the world in six days..  The point is, I'm not stupid. My IQ is way above average. but i guess since i don't walk around bragging about it, assumptions are made. "oh heather, shes just a big dumb blonde." no, i'm not.


the other thought that crossed my mind was actually really heartbreaking.. i am called 'Aunt Heather' by about 10 different kids. only one of those kids is my niece. the other ones are either second cousins or step family.. but i am happy to be aunt to all of them.  who is aunt and uncle to my kids? not my brother, not my cousins, not my step siblings... only my wife's sister... why? why doesn't it work both ways. these kids are MY kids as much as they would be if i gave birth to them. so why?