It's so damn hot... it needs to rain. I still think blogs are stupid, but here I am, blogging anyway. At this point, I don't even care who does or doesn't read this shit. I remember the reason I started this blog. I was moving out for a bit, and I figured I'd be watching a lot of movies.. I never moved out. We never exactly broke up...well maybe for like half a week. And all was well.  I didn't watch movies and then write about them like I planned. I suppose I should. It's kinda fun to pick apart someone elses hard work. Although, there are very few movies I dislike. I have this strange habit of only watching stuff that seems interesting. I'm not a critic so there is no real need to watch ALL THE THINGS. The Lady hurt her neck a few weeks ago, so there was reason for her early bedtimes.. I watched movies on the laptop with headphones so as not to disturb my Lady."Mama" was great. But really, I think Del Toro can do no wrong. that movie scared the hell outta me. "Sinister" and "The Last Exorcism II" not so much.. But they were still fun to watch.

What isn't fun is watching my mother give all her attention and resources to her step family. Oh how she loves to brag and brag about having 10 grandchildren.  She has one by blood. three by me, and six by her husbands kids. now, it is true that she should treat them all the same, and it would be slightly understandable if she favored my brothers kid.. however... her stepsons oldest daughter is a sociopath rape victim in an institution. and she accuses everyone of molesting her. including her father. well everyone except the man who actually raped her.. He's still living it up as the boyfriend of her mother. probably waiting for the other three to age up a little.. and what is the mom doing? letting it all happen, of course... leaving him would seriously affect the flow of her drugs and boning.. My mother has decided this is the kid that gets all the attention.. not that that changes things for my kids.. before it was...lets call her G3... it was G9andG10.. my kids have never been a priority. i suspect moms husband has some sort of problem with me, or my wife, or the fact that i have a wife rather than a husband... maybe its because my kids aren't his blood, maybe its because they're white. maybe its because the grass is green and the sky is blue. who the fuck knows. if it was just M. that had a problem, i could deal with that.. who the fuck cares what that mooching bastard thinks. his money is his money, and my mothers money is his money and that's the way it has always been.. dude hasn't had a job in 10 yrs.. wont put my mothers name on the house they have shared for the last 15 yrs and expects her to pay for ALL THE THINGS. upkeep, remodels, insurance... everything. fine, then he can keep the house clean like a good little housewife... nope my mom works a 50-60 hr week AND takes care of the house and him.. and now there is this fucking knee surgery.. that lazy fuck is milking it for all its worth. if he wold have been moving it and strengthening it, by now he would have been feeling great. My uncle had both his knees replaced (M. just had on knee scoped) and he was up within a week.. same doctor, same pain management, not the same mindset. When i was over at moms to help out a bit, there was a point when mom kicked us out of the living room so M. could piss in a jar... that asshat has crutches. he could have gone to the toilet like a big boy, but since he knows my mother the enabler will bow to his every whim...hes gonna piss in a jar and shes gonna hold his tiny pee pee while he does it.

     Today i was under the impression that my mother and i were going to meet up at my grammas house for a bit.. have some quality time.. but nope, she has my stepsister and her kids with her.. this little thing... this is the proverbial straw.. i think I'm pretty much done. my stepsister has usurped my mother, and that's fine.. i also have a step mother... ad frankly over the last few t=years she has been more of a mother than my mom. so.. that's how that is gonna be.

my kids stopped asking to stay with gramma C. and pops long ago... they got tired of hearing "not this time" only to find out that the "other" grandkids were there all weekend.. i don't blame them at all.  They have my dad and step mom... they are wonderful grandparents... too bad they live 400 fucking miles away...